It really is.
It is the little things that I hope I will remember for the rest of my life.
Because it is those seemingly little things that make the biggest difference to me.
Like my kids coming home, while on their long week with dad, to say hi.
And tell me they miss me.
And for my son, who hasn't seem me in 24 hours, to say....."mama, you smell good!"
.....and the reality is that I smell the same as I did 24 hours ago, he just must sort of miss me.
And my 12-yr-old to say "mama......(fill in the blank cuz i just want to not reveal what she really said cuz it could work against her in her other house....) and topped off with an "i miss you"
And my 10-year-old who comes in, gives me a big hug and thanks me for being home at right that exact time....she tells me to "check my phone." I did. 30 seconds after she is out the door again a text comes thru...."i luv u"
Or Brain's son who tells me...."i need more (spagetti) sauce. No seriously, I do. this is the best spagetti sauce I have ever had."
Or another who refers to me as his "dad's wonderful girlfriend"
And oh my heart.....
....is all about those little things.
Danielle: Hey.....I know three words that mean the same as poop.
Claire: I know four.
Marisa: I know five. Hey mom, how many do you know?
Me: Six. Off the top of my head, anyway.
Girls: Tell us.
Me: No. Enough poop talk.
Danielle: I'm not lying, I'm kidding.
And heard through the bathroom doors while someone was showering: (I'm not allowed to say which of my youngest daughters likes to sing this song) Life don't go Quite like you plan it We try so hard to understand it Irrebutable? Indisbutable fact is Shhhh It Happens
You are such an AMAZING young man....and I honestly don't have any idea of what I have ever done to deserve you!
When thinking about your last year, there are a few things that pop up in my mind:
You know that saying that goes something like "Sports do not build character, they reveal it"?
I have seen this to be so true in you.
You don't always have the successful record that you strive for.
And yet, you NEVER stop striving.
You expect the best from yourself, and when that isn't cutting it, you work harder.
And you take it upon yourself to not let your teammates get down, slow down or give up.
You are a leader.
I see it tons when you are playing sports and with your peers.
You have such power to make a difference in the world, and you do it every day, in your own ways.
You don't just hang out with certain people because they are "cool" or because you are "cool."
You notice needs around you and somehow, without making a big deal about it, you reach out.
And you are so cool about it, too.
You make being the "nice guy" look good.
You take care.
You look after me and your sisters...instictively.
I don't have to ask you to mow or shovel.
You warm up the car and you pump the gas.
You are always asking me to teach you to do things that would help you take care of me.
And you hardly ever ask me for money.
You are responsible, and even try to protect my feelings on some things.
You are brave.
I don't have to list the reasons....cause you know.
You stand up for the right thing.
You are smart.
You ask questions to learn the answers, not to be fed the answers.
Before you were born, I prayed for you. I made sort of a deal with God.
(i know that me thinking that God makes deals is poor theology...so what)
the circumstances in which you were born in were less than ideal.
But I promised God that I would bring you up "in the way" of Him if He would grant me the