I'm Nervous

....am I allowed to say that here?
On my blog....
Where I "intend" to be "professional"
But usually end up being "personal"
And it is all mostly only suitable for a scrapbook someday, anyway....

Well, no matter.

I am nervous.

I have a speech all mapped out for next week that I am supposed to give. 
And it is all about me
For some locals
So I'm so pleased to be asked
And super excited to share
And  not worried in the least than anyone will be let down
Because these are neighbors of mine.

Basically.

Here is the speech all wrapped up in an inspirational quote:

We must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily differences we can make, which, over time, add up to big differences we cannot foresee
-Marian White Edelman

This quote has held true in my life as "mom"
In my personal life
In my professional life
and life in general.

I am giving this speech about me
And small things I have done
Over the last 10 or so years
And have led to what looks like
A rather remarkable resume.

But I have been faced with a few decisions
(both personal and professional)
That I need to make
In the next WEEK

....and I hate going in front of people in a few days and not be able to say
that I know what the next step is for me.

hate it.

Am I on the verge of being asked to do something big and significant?
Yes.
Will I back down from that to pursue a more personal "big thing" for me?
I don't know.

One looks better on a resume....
the other looks better in light of a personal goal.

Both are good things
Good causes.

One has a gauranteed income
Benefits
Education credits.

The other has no gaurantees.

I wish I knew the right answer.

Maybe the local group will have to ask me to come back later and tell them what is going on....